I have often pictured myself as a mountain lake. My lake is loaded with rabbits swimming around like fish. I know that rabbits swimming around like fish seems unreasonable. If the rabbits are a picture of my buried pain then the swimming rabbits are appropriate because their is nothing rational about me carrying around buried pain for years.
-I have felt that the anger, sense of abandonment and unfairness were unworthy of me. They were a threat to my world.
It’s one of those nights. I’m sitting here looking through an old external hard drive that I forgot I had. It’s full of my high school research papers, AIM conversations with old crushes, songs I haven’t heard in years (that I still know all the words to), and pictures I had forgotten were taken with friends I haven’t spoken to in years. Looking through it has definitely given me some laughs, but also a lot of emotion.
The big question has always been, “Is there life beyond death?” Religions and cultures tend to agree in the affirmative. Even those with no religious belief seem to have an inbuilt notion of going to heaven or going to some happy spiritual place, regardless of the standard of moral behaviour that the person may have displayed during their life.
A few weeks ago, I was really struggling during a particular Sunday service. Now, most Sundays are the highlight of my week, thanks to my amazing church family. But this one morning just happened to be an off day for me. I’d had a really rough week at work, to the point of being so frustrated that I lost my temper with one of my coworkers. I couldn’t quite connect with the first two songs during worship, especially trying to find harmonies. It was rough.
How are we saved? That is the question that mankind has been seeking the answer to for centuries. And it has never mattered what we identify as. Christian, Muslim, Agnostic, Atheist, Secular Humanist. The list goes on. Every human being who has ever walked this earth has sought deliverance. Deliverance from this world. Deliverance from wrath, temporal or eternal. Perhaps deliverance from ourselves. We are all seeking salvation from something, even if we’re too blind to see it. We are all seeking the answer to the biggest perceived problem facing humanity.